Wherever you go, go with all your heart...

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Goodbye Crna Gora

I was so reluctant to get on the plane to come here. I reflect back to the sobbing in the middle of the airport as I considered the great adventures I could have if I were to just turn around, collect my luggage, and set up life in America.

And here I sit, reluctant to leave. My heart was so far closed when I arrived, and Montenegro opened it to even the most scary ideas.

The idea that maybe I will never truly go "home."
The possibility of taking a leap of faith if circumstances allowed me to.
The thought that I may very well be far happier on my own than I ever will be with anyone.
The idea of silence and stillness being a place of comfort rather than anxiety.

Everything in me wants to stay, and everything in me needs to leave.

I always say that love songs about people are actually about places and experiences. I have so many songs for Tivat. And years from now when I'm sitting in a bar in America, or Kazakhstan, or Southeast Asia or South America, this is what I will see behind the lids of my eyes as I close them and feel this song move through me. I'm just an animal looking for a home, and of all those kind of places, Tivat has a face with a damn fine view. Cue the tears.

http://www.kizoa.com/Movie-Video-Slideshow-Maker/d124263292k5825418o1l1/tivat-sunsets


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